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What a beautiful morning! That was the very first thought that went through my mind waking up in Pärnu after a good night sleep. Even though I stayed up until 2 am or so, I felt so fresh and ready for the BIG day!

I had gathered a lot of thoughts during that search for puzzles, pictures, empowerment speeches and so on. Now it was time to put them all together with the ideas that I had gathered during past days. Some time ago, I had to make a presentation and I know that it’s really effective to put max 6 points to the PPT page and create the talk around it. So, consider it done, I figured.

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I tried it, didn’t work for me. So instead I started to make changes in a web page that I have to administrate from time to time. One of the VP candidates asked me 4 hours before the event started – how’s your speech coming up. And I was honest with her, I said that I feel really low and I’m not even concentrating on the speech. She said something like, well then, start working on it!!! :D But I still didn’t, I still didn’t know how to make that perfect speech.

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and the story goes on…

So far, I got no speech. Just some stupid keywords, some silly sentences, some weird symbols – so what? It’s not going to give me a speech, is it?

We spent Friday evening at the AIESEC Pärnu board apartment with some people. Siki was also there, my dear fellow candidate. She had her speech figured out almost right. Only one paragraph missing and she said she’ll make it spontaneously during her speech. Ohwell…

I really wanted to get my mind off this. There was less than 24 hrs left and I wanted to have time off, the speech had been on my mind during every hour I spent awake since I sent off my application. I managed to be productive and come up with a training plan we were supposed to do with Marko, current president of AIESEC Pärnu. Considering how full our minds were about the elections, the result was quite alright actually ;) But it really showed that at times our brains malfunctioned :D

After we finished, I realized that I really like the idea about the puzzle for my speech and it would be great if I could get an image that would support my speech. Huh, so I spent the next few hours quietly surfing Google image database. Trying to find just the perfect one. Unfortunately I deleted them after the speech as they seemed to be irrelevant then.

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so the story continues…

To take shortly together what had happened so far – I started from the end, wrote down the ending I wanted to use and then during the days that were left for actually having to deliver the speech, I just put down a lot of keywords. And there I was, sitting at the hairdresser’s, hair dyed, drinking some coffee and had just a bunch of bullet points on my paper. It was a bit more than 24 hrs until the speech, less than 2hrs from when I had to leave Tallinn.

Okey, well, if I’m not able to make anything out of keywords, why not try to put down some real sentences and write the whole speech just there and then… or at least some of the more important things I wanted to say. Well, let’s make it happen!

It was exactly

Almost a week ago I sent off my application. The peace that I was hoping for after making the decision never came. Standing in f Past week has been a total roller coaster ride – up & down and all the way around. Even standing in front of you today – I feel quite shaky. But it gets better Can it But can it get better than this?

Seeing all of you here, especially so many of you whom I’ve been working with so closely during past year – I feel so happy. I feel that a great success. and I’m

Looking at myself grown throughout the past year I still see so many new chances it improve. I totally agree with Siim that @ is like a toolbox, it gives you me tools that in your life you I can use either for my own good or build something great with others. I am eager to teach so many o how to use those tools to others so that I wouldn’t have to build only myself.

Siia midagi veel>

I’m sure a lot of you may wonder, why me? How come I’m so certain that I want to do it and make it? I have always loved putting together puzzles – you know – these 1000 pieced ones. Some are even bigger than that. And usually sometimes it is really easy to put some places pieces in place and harder for some of those sky pieces or something. And what do you when you get stuck? Take a look at the box cover, right? How about when you have don’t have the cover? That is how I feel about my own life – my whole life is a big puzzle and so are others’ lives. Life throws opportunities to us all the time and it’s up to us to make sure if it’s part of our picture or someone else’s. So I have looked at this opportunity from each possible side, considered all perspectives & found a conclusion that it is part of my picture!

Have you ever hear a saying “If you can dream it, you can do it”? I believe that imagination is a powerful tool. Can you imagine the next year that during the next year I am leading our LC? Can you imagine your LC meetings lead by me? Can you imagine working close to me in the next EB lead by me? Can you imagine me being the next piece in LC Tallinn’s puzzle?

Well, I can (imagine all that!)

Thank you!

There I was, sitting in the hairdresser’s, writing this stuff on the paper, feeling like it’s all a lot of crap. Okey, time to brush it off my head with all that hair that was cut off and move on. Time to go to Pärnu and no time to think of what will I say tomorrow!

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Aine: IDU5360 Kontseptuaalne süsteemianalüüs
Semester: Kevad 2004
Moodul: Põhiõpe
Loengute õppejõud: Lea Elmik
Harjutustunnid: Helena Jürgenson
Eksami hinne: 5

Praegu tagantjärele üritasin meelde tuletada, et kes siis ikkagi loenguid andis – Karin Rava või Lea Elmik. Ma arvan, et siiski viimane, kuigi see on suht kahtlane ja ma pead ei anna. Üldiselt oli see aine üks lihtsamatest vist. Õppimiseks oli loengumaterjali suht vähe, sellest sain tegelikult nii mõndagi edaspidiseks. Olen nii “sissejuhatus infosüsteemidesse” kui ka “kontseptuaalse süsteemianalüüsi” loengumaterjale tegelikult ka edaspidistes projektides väga palju kasutanud. Neis oli hästi ja lihtsalt asjad ära selgitatud :)

Projekti koha pealt mäletan niipalju, et igasuguste näidisprojektide järgi polnudki seda niiväga raske teha. Kõik jäi viimasele hetkele ikkagi, aga see-eest võrreldes ainetega, mis ees ootasid (“andmebaaside projekteerimine, OOD jne), siis oli ikka väga vähe vaja päris pika aja jooksul ära teha.

Ma arvan, et just tänu Helenale meeldisid mulle enamjaolt need projektiained ja eriti meelepäraseks osutus just dokumentatsiooni ja analüüsi pool. Lisaks oli hea teada, et iga küsimus, mis mul tekkis, sai kenasti õppejõu poolt ära vastatud.

Minu soovitused selle aine puhul jäävad pigem üldist laadi:

• valida selline teema, millest on hea ettekujutus olemas, kuidas protsessid töötavad
• Rational’i, EA või muu sarnase programmi eelnev kasutusoskus tuleb kindlasti kasuks
• Kui eelnevat kogemust nende programmide koha pealt ei ole, soovitan selle aine raames asja tõsiselt võtta ja peamised nipid selgeks saada, on edaspidi Eessaare ainetes kõvasti lihtsam
• Kuna realisatsiooni polnud vaja teha ehk siis ainult dokumentatsioon, soovitan sellega ruttu ühele poole saada. Põhjalikult tehtud ja varakult esitatud projektide eest tulid ka suhteliselt head hinded ;)
• Loengute koha pealt ei oska väga nõu anda – kui siis seda, et kui varasemalt on selle süsteemianalüüsi teooria veidi segaseks jäänud, siis edaspidise lihtsuse huvides on hea just siin aines omale põhimõisted selgeks teha. Hiljem kulub juba suur osa energiast rakenduste vorpimisele.

Viide: mida tähendab kontseptuaalne? (üks võimalikest vastustest)

Juba teisipäevast saati on mind pidevalt kummitanud üks eluliselt oluline küsimus, mis mulle ootamatult esitati. Olles napilt AIESEC Tallinna presidendiks valitud mõned päevad varem, võis muidugi seda küsimust ka oodata.

Et ajalooliselt kõik korrektne oleks:

K: oled nüüd eeskuju?
V: miks nüüd alles? kogu aeg olen selle poole püüelnud, et eeskuju olla

Ja tegelikult on see küsimus mu pähe jõudnud korduvalt ilma, et ma seda ise tegelikult tahaksin. Samas, ühel hetkel tuleks see ikkagi ette võtta, ära vastata ja asjad läbi mõelda :) Küll siis see kummitus ka selja tagant ära kaob ;)

Aga jah, ma arvan, et reaalselt pole siiani väga muutnud, sellest hetkest siis, kui presidendiks sain. Minu aasta algab peale ju alles 1. juunist pärast seda, kui olen palju õpetussõnu oma aastaks saanud praeguselt presidendilt. Selle ajaga on mul kindlasti õppida oioi kui usinasti.

Samas, eeskujuks olemist ei saa ju tegelikult kellelegi väga õpetada? Mis see tegelikult minu jaoks tähendab?

Ma arvan, et meie kõigi jaoks on teemasid/olukordi/isikuomadusi, millega teistele eeskujuks olla tahame. Kindlasti on meis kõigis ka midagi sellist, mille parema meelega enda teada hoiame ja kõva häälega ei räägi – sest me ei taha ju olla eeskujuks halbade asjadega, eks?

Eile õhtul hambaid pestes mõtlesin, et millega mina tahan eeskujulik olla; mida ma tahaksin, et teised minus näevad ja tekitaks neis tahtmise neid omadusi ka endas arendada?

Minu arvates on mul väga hea suhtumine ja hoiak elu ja õppimise suhtes. Sain sellele mingitpidi kinnitust ka tööintervjuudel käies, kus sain positiivset tagasisidet oma hoiakute kohta. Soov ja tahe pidevalt ennast täiendada ja õppida on tänapäeva tööandjale ikka väga oluline :)

Samuti tahan eeskujuks olla oma põhjalikkuse ja täpsusega. Tean, et kohati kipun detailidele liialt rõhku pöörama – samas on see siiski pigem hea kui halb. Kui meeskonnas on inimesi, kes oskavad selle meeskonna tulemuste kasuks pöörata, siis on superhästi ju ;) Mina teen detaile, keegi teine keskendub üldistele teemadele – kõik saab hästi ja korrektselt tehtud.

Teisest küljest minu suhtumist vaadates – kui probleemid tekivad, üritan neile alati lahendusi leida. Proovin ka endast kõik anda, et probleeme ennetada. Usun, et selline suhtumine võiks ka paljudele eeskujuks olla. Samuti oma analüüsioskuse kasutamine. Vaatan ettetulevaid küsimusi, teemasid alati mitme nurga alt läbi, teen omad järeldused, kuulan teiste arvamusi – ja lõpuks tulen parima võimaliku lahendusega välja. Kui vaja, siis ka mitmega ja alati põhjendan ka oma valikud ära nii endale kui teistele :) Kas see pole mitte hea oskus, millest Å¡nitti võtta? :D

Kindlasti on minu juures neid külgi, mida ei tasu väga eeskujuna võtta – kooliteemad, kodutööde edasilükkamine, liigne närveerimine minust mitteolenevate asjade pärast, kohatine enesekriitika – aga kellel meist ei oleks nõrgemaid külgi? Oluline on lihtsalt see, et teadvustaksime neid endile ja tegeleksime nende parendamisega. Mina püüan seda järk-järgult teha, aga see võtab lihtsalt veidi aega :)

So, it’s officially over now, the elections, that is. When I gave a speech in order to apply for the executive board of AIESEC Tallinn last year, I wrote down my whole speech and sort of read it out in a nice way. However, this year, it was all totally different.

I tried to put down the sentences for the speech quite many times. First time was probably exactly a week ago, when I started writing down some ideas about the speech… something like this:

• Puzzle
• What kind of person am I, what is so special about me? Why me?
• Comparing myself to the previous version of me – one year ago I didn’t…
• 3 things I want to talk about (puzzle, compare myself against myself instead of others, my personal interests vs local committee interests, what am I strong at, something about my journey)
• and so on…

Okey, it seemed I had something down already, some ideas, but it didn’t work quite that way. First hours/days after sending in the application, I was so depressed that at time I even wanted to withdraw my application. Well, as you see, I pulled through.

Then some new ideas came to my mind, something like:

• When you can dream it, you can do it! Have you ever heard of that? This has been one of my special favorite motto since times I don’t even remember…
• Can you imagine your team meeting with me being there? Can you imagine all those LC meetings, me guiding you through? Can you imagine learning circle events with me? Can you imagine me being the next LCP of LC Tallinn?
• I CAN!
• Thank you!

But still, it was far from the whole idea of the speech. Everyone kept asking – so, how’s your speech coming up? Is it ready yet? Well, it was quite far from being ready, so I decided to put some more effort to it and approach it from different side. I started to put down the timing. How much can I spend on introduction, supporting points and conclusion and what should be the main idea in each section. Some keywords were put down again:

• Me today, tomorrow – compare to myself. Better version of me. Puzzle – the right piece for me. Me and AIESEC Tallinn.
• Values, strengths, weaknesses, opportunities for me and the LC, when something is wrong I seek for solutions -> solution-orientated, good or bad?
• Compromises! Empathy! Helpfulness, need to help others
• Right attitude – confirmation from job interviews
• Some questions – Why would I want to become a better version of me? How can I?
• Communication
• Vice presidents are not able to do things only by themselves, the organization is too big – but we can start building it together
• It should bring out the idea that I have thought this step through from each aspect and I imagine myself running our local committee (BS?)
• It can only get better! (heard in a song and wrote it down :D)
• Life is a sequence of problem-solving games

But it still wasn’t enough, I couldn’t see how can I make a speech out of that. So the search wasn’t over yet.

To be continued…

• 2. aprill – töölepingu allkirjastamine
• 4. aprill – esimene tööpäev
• 5. aprill – “Opera Comique” Viljandi Ugalas
• 5.-8. aprill – nädalavahetus Viljandis
• 13.-23. aprill – International Trainers Congress (Bukarest, Rumeenia)
• 4.-6. mai – Riiklik planeerimiskonverents
• 21. mai – 8. juuni – Sess TTÜ-s
• 31. mai – AIESEC Tallinna juhatuse aasta saab läbi
• 1. juuni – AIESEC Tallinna 2007-2008 juhatuse aasta algab (sh minu aasta AIESEC Tallinna presidendina)

Hmm, hea et igav ei ole, eks :D

PS. Ma sain tegelikult presidendiks vaid ühe poolthäälega :) Siki on supertubli!